Drāno for your mind

Getting ahead of the curve is like trying to pause live television. That analogy would have worked a few years ago before TiVo. Hmm. Ok, getting ahead of the curve is like trying to pause live television before the invention of pausing live television. There.

Here’s what I mean: we always have so much to sort out in our little brains. So, getting everything off of your plate and to the point that you are worry-free is almost impossible. It’s pausing everything just so you can play catch-up. The sure-fire way to do this seems to be to never stop moving. Like, literally, not sit down and relax. Things that are in motion tend to stay in motion. It’s physics. But this option is also a simple guarantee that you won’t ever enjoy yourself. Balance, it is then.

It’s a funny little thing. How difficult it is to put your own mind at ease for an extended period of time. We impose a lot of this on ourselves. If our own aspirations and opinions of ourselves weren’t so damn high we’d be a lot happier. But we’d also be a lot crappier towards one another than we already are. All I’m saying is that I’m finding it to be a necessary practice to check myself every once and awhile and reassure that I’m on the right track. Whatever that is. Take an honest look at what I do with my time. What I’m learning. How I’m acting towards everybody. Why it’s important to worry about these things at all. And every time I realign myself with a new way of doing things as kind of a method of cleansing my head. So, big picture, all I really want to do is get ahead of the curve. Quit playing catch-up. Stop leaving things to do for the next day, whenever possible. So much harder than it sounds. I’ll say, “I’ll just get up at 6 A.M. tomorrow and do this” and then wake up at 8:30 in a rush and have to eat breakfast in the car.

I guarantee I will eat breakfast in my car again. Even though I, theoretically, never intend to do so. But big picture, at least I'm working towards something. Having things in their right place. But first I have to play some catch-up.